Lions and Tigers and Bears.....Oh MY!!!

We went to the zoo today with my mommies group.

Camden can't remember going to the zoo in the past so he was really excited. McKenna was worried that the animals were going to get her.

Check back for pictures.

He has three days

I took Matt to the ER this morning and they are giving him three days. They think he has a strain that is resistent to the augmentin because it doesn't seem to have touched it. They gave him another shot and two prescriptions for more antibiotics to take in addition to the augmentin. If he isn't feeling 100 times better by Monday they will admit him.

His oxygen levels are still low. They fluctuate around 90-92, sometimes going into the high eighties. They put him on oxygen and it made it a lot easier to breather but after a while it was driving him nuts so he took it off(they told him he could).

What do you want for dinner?

With Matt being sick and not having much of an appetite we haven't been doing much for dinner lately. We asked Camden what he wanted for dinner last night and this is how the conversation went:

Matt: What do you want for dinner tonight bud?
Camden: Peanut butter & jelly samich
(This was not a surprise. He eats pb&j for lunch 99% of the time)
Matt: What if there wasn't peanut butter & jelly sandwiches? What would you want?
Camden: no peanut butter & jelly?
Matt: Yep, no peanut butter & jelly. What would you want?
Camden: (after thinking for a minute) Dinner

It was pretty cute.

Matt is still pretty sick. He seems to have a constant headache, but it varies in the severity of pain and location. He is still running fevers off and on. I think the coughing is the most draining on him. He says he does feel like he's getting better...although it doesn't sound like it. He is tired of being couped up in the house.

"My daddy got shot"

This is what McKenna is telling the neighbors.

Matt is still very sick. He said last night that he was feeling better but this morning he said he went to get a drink at the gas station and it about killed him. I was kind of starting to worry. Then he called me this morning at work and sounded like hell. He wanted to go to the dr. so I searched for one and left work. When I got home he was having a really hard time breathing and it took everything out of him just to walk out to the car.

It turns out he has pneumonia. They had him blow into something to check his oxygen level and it was 130. After the treatment it was 410!! When we were walking out to the car, Camden asked him what the dr did and Matt told him he got a big shot in the butt. So....McKenna is telling the neighbors her dad got shot.

Surprise!!!

Yesterday we gave my mom a surprise party for her 60th birthday. We have been planning this since May and she had absolutely no idea. She thought Melissa was just having a house warming party. I seriously can not believe we pulled it off without her not having a clue.

She seemed to have a great time catching up with friends and family she hasn't seen in a while. I had a great time talking to our friends Mindy & Cindy. Cindy was one of my first friends when we moved into the house I grew up in. I forgot how much fun we have together. We've been friends for about 30 years. Holy Shit!! 30 years......I kinda feel old. We all had a great time reminiscing though. I realized how much I really suck at keeping in touch with people.

Matt wasn't able to go, he is really sick. I don't think I've ever seen him this sick before. He almost had me pick him up from work on Friday because he was so sick. He stayed in bed all day yesterday. He is actually taking medicine....and he didn't golf on Friday. The man is sick! At least he has a couple of days off to rest. He can't seem to get rid of his fever for an extended length of time. He has a horrible cough. It sounds really dry, like his chest is tight. He said his throat doesn't hurt.

Hope

A couple of months ago I was talking to my friend/neighbor. She told me she was working for a different company and proceded to tell me about the program they sold. It's called Attacking Anxiety and Depression by Lucinda Bassett. I have been interested in it since she told me about it but I didn't have $500 to buy it. They have a 30 day free trial but I didn't want to do that because I would probably want it even more and I didn't want to tempt myself.

So, I got a hair brained idea about using my Flex Account to pay for it. I finally called today and all I have to do is get a prescription from my dr and I can use my Flex Account to pay for it!!

I'm so excited! My dr.'s appt is in a couple of weeks but in the interim I think I'll do the mini online program they emailed me. I took the self assessment test first and then they emailed me the results and then another offering the online program.

Maybe, just maybe, there is a chance I won't have to be dependent on a pill the rest of my life. Do you have any idea how much I hate knowing that I HAVE to take a pill to keep me functioning at this level of sanity? Let me tell you....I hate it!!

WTF

First...yes, I know I haven't blogged in a while....sorry. I'll update soon.

On to business.....
So, I have to go back to the dr for my prescription refill soon. Oh...when I called to make the appt, they asked how many refills I had, one? two?, three? ONE was all I could reply. Three???? Why in the hell would they ask that? And why would I have three?

Anyway......so the same thing is happening that did last year. I'm starting to become more irritable, stressed and depressed. Last year he upped my dosage. Great, it worked. When I was in treatment one of my therapists said that with this type of medication the dosage usually increases every year because you become immune to it or something.

Well, I swear it has had an effect on my memory, or maybe it's just a side effect of my ed. But I prefer not to think it's the latter. So I decided to google it to see what the side effect are.

What do I find.......you shouldn't take more than 450mg of this medication if you have experienced seizures or an eating disorder. Hello! EATING DISORDER?!?!?! Um, pretty sure that's what I went to treatment for. And why did nobody know about this? My therapists, phsychologist, physciatrist(whatever the hell that asshat was) and my prescribing dr, who by the way did my exam and ekg so I could go into treatment.

"You should not take Wellbutrin if you currently have, or formerly had, an eating disorder. For some reason, people with a history of anorexia nervosa or bulimia seem to be more likely to experience Wellbutrin-related seizures."

For some reason....??? WTF am I taking? And another lovely side effect.....aggitation. Hmmmm. That sure does explain a lot!


Maybe I'm just over reacting and shouldn't research things late at night. I'm not going to lie....I'm kinda worried about this little piece of information I found.

I really am sick of taking medication. Maybe I will look into Lucinda Bassetts program.